++UPDATE
Haven't wrote much in awhile, so thought I'd write here. NYC is great, it's pretty awesome at this point & have been super busy too which is always good.
This recent week:
-I started my two new scene study courses at The Barrow Group (after completing two TV/Film courses, so I'm improving which is exciting), started test shooting over a couple of days for a reality sitcom I'm going to be in centered around a comedy club (cos' I'm such a funny person.....)
-Picked up my 4th & 5th fashion design samples that had been finished off by my partner and starting work on the 6th.
-Went up to Poughkeepsie for the Vassar Brothers Medical Auxiliary Red Carpet Fashion Show that I was closing, put me up in a hotel the night before which was cool and spent most of it eating with the models from the open restaurant haha, afterwards got back to Manhattan and went to a few house parties.
-Saturday shot a short film, most of it taking place as a Brooklyn party scene shot documentary style so basically being filmed at a party, then went back to a friends having a fun night till way into the morning ahem next day, which wasn't so good getting up for the last scene shoot on Sunday but managed!
YAH stuff is happening here, shooting for a magazine on wednesday but my focus isn't really on modelling, hopefully something can happen with acting in the future, and if I work hard at my craft, am ambitious and passionate there is no reason something can't happen. Going to LA in about a month with mother to hopefully sign with a certain modelling agency and also meet some acting agencies and see what happens! Have to go back home for university at the end of July so will try continue everything I can there as much as I can and perhaps transfer to NYU for next year.
Everything is hazy and uncertain and I hope to let this mystery drive me forward. Though as I tweeted earlier... we are all destined for some greatness but the only issue is realising to what extent? Does it need to be that level everyone seems to be desire or could it just be greatness amongst our social circle or peers or even just ourselves? How can we learn to be satisfied and even love what we already have and can achieve.. is that not the hardest part? All this experimentation and experience could be my greatness, and I need to learn to accept how amazing that really is, and not look so far ahead thinking that happiness lies with the mad notion of 'fame' and success.
We are all far too OBSESSED.